dreams are illustrations

...from the book your soul is writing about you.

Recently i have been busy making some changes in my life... & with the impending new year upon us, i've been equally busy making little goals for myself. Typically, i am not the New Years Resolution sort of gal... but, i can't help but get a little giddy thinking of all the things i dream twenty-eleven will bring me ♥

My one resolution for 2010 was to create a new blog (this one!) & remain consistent with it... once i finished patting myself of the back for that goal (; i began thinking of all the different things i want to experience in 2011... sooo many things!

i've been doodling & journaling like crazy... it brings a teeth ripping smile to my face. the minutes & days just keep rolling by & i can hardly believe NYE is this FRIDAY! It's going to be a different New Year for me, & i am so ready to embrace it.

hey santa,

sure do appreciate you coming through so sweetly this year... here i was thinking i might find coal in my stocking & much to my surprise i received some truly lovely gifts... so, thanks old man.

of course it's not about the presents (though they were fabulous & included a ballin new laptop, adorable dresses (one featured below), a colorful coach purse, & a weenie dog necklace!) this year Santa, it was also about spending time with those closest to me: enjoying delicious home cooked meals, snuggling to watch movies at home (ahem Home Alone on VHS) as well as in the theater, sharing meals with friends, catching up over coffee, story telling til the early morning hours, & even having a small five year old boy sit on my lap & tell me what he was hoping to find beneath his tree.

i'm having a hard time grasping the fact that twenty ten is almost complete & a new year is approaching... so much has happened & changed in my life this year, it has definitely been a wild ride, but not gonna lie... i'm crossing my fingers that 2011 is the best yet!

& i'm thinking this little gem i tried on tonight will be my NYE dress, quite fitting for a black tie affair... ♥

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in honor of the snowy day in Jacksonville, Florida... so i missed it, i missed my opportunity to create possible snow angels on the ground... i can still live vicariously through Michael Bublé. right?


good morning universe!! this is me officially wishing YOU a very merry holiday!

last night i was surrounded by family & friends & it just started to truly feel like Christmas time. Today, i have button wrapped in a festive sweater with giant Buttons & a scarf, shes chowing down on a bone Santa brought her while i sit, anxiously awaiting the great present exchange with my loved ones! For getting such a late start, i still think i did a pretty legit job on getting everyone's gifts in order...

My father hasn't even started in on A Christmas Story yet... pink bunny suit is in my near future.

love, love, love to you all!

things i adore...

laughing til my stomach hurts
having a fabulous fancy time with my sweet new coworkers
hot chocolate
wearing bright red dresses with bows on the shoulders
dancing dancing dancing
christmas lights
snuggling with my darling weenie donned in christmas sweaters
gazing into the bustling fire
candy canes
lounging with my momma bear to watch Home Alone

only five more days til Christmas & i haven't purchased a single gift....
does that qualify me for the naughty list??

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hello hello :) for my twentieth feature of melodic mondaze i was unsure what band/song i wanted to use. Typically, i choose tunes that i have recently discovered or rediscovered & cant stop listening to... this week however i am featuring my favorite band ~ Brand New. Every album they have created is so vastly different, they are a band that continues to evolve, mature, & explore. Obviously, if you aren't aware who Brand New is, you have probably been living under a rock, i've been obsessing over them since their first album since it released in 2001. Personally, i have grown with BR& NEW & perhaps i'm slightly biased but in my most honest opinion they are the most influential & inspiring band. Jesse Lacey is a lyrical genius. Experiencing them at their greatest, performing live is a magical phenomenon, & sharing their music is a gift...... ♥
hope you enjoy this mash up of incredible songs i love, love, love from their albums.

a little charm

...goes a long way. i am so delighted with my tiny $8 tree that branched out of the Super Target located just miles away from my humble abode. imagine that?? whats better... a lovely little wise owl friend now keeps me company on my desk & keeps a watchful eye over my skiing weenie dog dangling nearby.

i think i'm in need of receiving two gold stars tonight... the first for blowing a circuit in my house & the second for solving the problem via the breaker box. who knew you shouldn't vacuum the living room while washing a load of laundry in a forties house....? lesson learned: electricity was very different in 1942 vs 2010.

lurking in the shadows

a fellow at my work shared this link of amazing shadow art with me... & i felt compelled to share it will you all out in bloggerville. it's incredible the beautiful shadows that come off these random objects & rubbish. just one more example that beauty is all in the eye of the beholder!

you can check out more photos of awesome shadow art here & here.

tonight i picked up a shiny lime tinsel tree to decorate tomorrow! Confession: my porch has two pumpkins on display & my living room still has Happy Halloween decor up... whats the expiration date on that? ;) ah well pictures to follow... once my darling tree is complete. tonight, i pretend to be Mexican & enjoy Coronas. adios amigos!

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Morrisey is an absolute living genius, whenever i listen to the Smiths i cannot help but smile. There is a Light That Never Goes Out is arguably the greatest love song of all time ♥ i especially love all the bicycles in this video...

This weekend i dawned sparkling gold spandex leggings... & my stems are already missing them, for they made quite a statement. I ventured into a sports bar named Pipers that just so happened to be extremely misleading... as it had a bagpiper toon on their logo, & there was not a single bagpiper in sight... on top of that, not even the lovely sound of bagpipes filling their bar. BLASPHEMY!! Currently, I'm dreaming of a sweet Scottish lady named Fiona, (aka my sweet mother) to return from the homeland. She's been trapped in Scotland due to the snow & her flight hes been canceled yet again... sending wishful thoughts out into the universe.

happy monday XOXO

the taste of rain

have you ever been caught in the rain & felt overwhelmed with love??

lately i have been a little obsessed with office supplies & pondering office decor for my new working digs. i have a few ideas but am still scouring the internet for designs & inspiration! fun!!

i know i want to have a cluster of some of my little paintings...
recently after a few jack & cokes i was feeling a bit creative & made this :)

the umbrella is the color of my office walls ♥

so ecstatic!

This evening i left my work to venture on a mini shopping spree. Confession: in addition to shopping, i have been gambling. i gambled one Alexander Hamilton bill to enter the weekly NFL office pool.... oh these boys so didn't know what hit them when I beat all their candy asses & annihilated them with my accurate game predictions.

upon collecting my monetary winnings i ventured over to Target to pick out this sweet box for my office...

absolutely cannot wait to set this beauty on my desk in the morning & have my entire iPod library at my fingertips while i work!! added bonus... its a constant reminder to all the dudes that they are losers :)

EDIT: the sound is awesome on this little gem! it is so sleek & the sound quality is impressive! it also works as an alarm clock, has a remote, it plugs into the wall but can also be portable with batteries... for around eighty bones this is a steal... & would make a killer gift, if you are feeling generous!

in closing i'd like to ponder this thought... who is Pete, & why is he always referenced in statements like "For the love of Pete!" clearly, he is very lovable... but why!?!

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to quote indie Swedish singer Lykke Li...

Like a shotgun needs an outcome
I'm your prostitute, you gon' get some

her new single is dope & super catchy. & in all seriousness, who doesn't appreciate a good jam about banging? ok, so not the most original theme, but enjoyable nonetheless. i cant quite place exactly what it reminds me of but i'm probably going to be singing little diddies of it all day tomorrow as i sit in my turquoise office & dream of my future ipod boombox :) soon it will be decorated & i wont be able to resist snapping pics to share! eee!

lessons in domestication

upon venturing back to the fifties to acquire some necessary pie making skills i learned a few things as i channeled Betty...

first of all, i was unaware that "sweet milk" is the same as the "milk poured on top of your cereal" Imagine my surprise, while listening to my sweet Grandmother relay her famous double chocolate pie recipe to me over the telephone. Secondly, when sweet Dorothy D says a recipe is easy, it might just be that it's incredibly simple according to a lovely farm wife who has been doing it for over fifty years... & lastly, as delicious as it arguably may look from a far...

if the chocolate fails to thicken under the broil, and you choose to ignore this, and bake it anyway, it will boldly refuse to solidify. & whats worse, it will laugh at you as you gently remove it from the oven & it jiggles at you.... taunting you with its liquidity.

final score: Pie 1 Betty 0


four days off work & tomorrow morning i wont know what to do with myself when my alarm starts blaring. I also officially cant stop lurking the interwebs after four days of separation from my laptop... here i am entering existing in nerdy glazed eyeballs night owl status!

reflecting on a few things while i sit in a somewhat silent environment. minus the sound of trains in the distance, walnuts dropping & rolling on my roof, my bed side clock ticking away, & my darling little weenie snoring.

its kind of magical in its own way. hoping for inspiring dreams tonight.

goodnight world.


In honor of Thanksgiving… Things I’m thankful for :

♥ My loving family who continue to make me smile, laugh, unconditionally love & support me.

♥ My health, to be alive & well & have lived twenty five fabulous years.

♥ Having a new job. So grateful that I was given the opportunity to do something different that I think I will enjoy while being able to pay the bills & figure out my future.

♥ Music. it makes every single day that much more amazing. Hearing a song that can instantly brings me back to a certain memory, the intensity of hearing it being performed live, groovin & singing at the top of my lungs… for every mood i can have there is a soundtrack to it...

♥ The different relationships in my life. Especially with ones i have let in & who understand me & stimulate me… who are there for me & let me be there for them.

♥ A Seminole victory! How absolutely incredible it was to watch my Seminole’s pour all their hearts out onto the field to completely dominate their nemesis – the FL Gators!! AWESOME!

♥ For a roof over my head in sunny Florida… it's nearly December & I am already being a big wimp about the drop in temperature. SO thankful I do not have to scrape ice from my windshield & freeze my buns off in the snow every day!

♥ My coffee maker & its ability to brew deliciously bold coffee to get me through each morning. YUM, thank you!

♥ The beauty that surrounds me (& you) every day. You just have to open your eyes to see it. So thankful for inspiring images every where!!

♥ My lovely four legged little Button. I am beyond grateful for her every. single. day. My heart absolutely melts for her, I am incredibly thankful for her antics, the way she snuggles me & keeps me laughing & her companionship. i would be truly lost without her.

& this is only a small list of all that I am thankful for. I am most thankful for LOVE. Love is everywhere… i had a fantastic Thanksgiving with the ones I love, with delicious food & four relaxing days without an alarm clock!

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Ohh how thrilled I am to feature this lovely new artist for volume seventeen of mm.

Hello Jessie J <3 Jessie is a twenty-two year old singer songwriter hailing from lovely London. London calling me :) I have a weakness for artists from there, I'm not sure what it is, but somehow I easily fall in love with their style. I found Jessie J while doing some Internet wandering this evening & she impressed me immediately.

She has her own YouTube channel (subscribe here) where she shares numerous webcam vids where she belts her heart out for world wide web viewers. She's incredible. She has this swag about her that is so unique & refreshing. I am completely girl crushing on her style, her bangs, her nails & you know I dig that she's a Jessie, and not to mention the facial expressions she makes as these deep motown sounds bellow out her frame. brilliant! What's more.... Upon further investigation I found out my man JT (ahem Justin Timberlake) claims she is the hottest singer out right now. two thumbs up in my book!

I am highly anticipating her new album set to be released this year... but until then she lives on YouTube!

xoxo excuse me, pardon the fact its Tuesday!

Food for thought

Happy Monday!! Ohhh & what a glorious Monday it is... Only three working days this week, one down, two to go & then I'll be devouring tasty food for the rest of the week!! I love Thanksgiving.... well, actually its the traditional Thanksgiving feast that i adore so much. I do not love the truth that lies behind Thanksgiving. I throughly enjoy sitting around the table with my family, laughing, recognizing the many things we are all thankful for, and of course stuffing our faces with juicy turkey & ham, mashed potatoes, biscuits, stuffing, all the trimmings and pie ohhh pie.... In a couple of days i'm attempting to make my first pie!!

Am I the only one who finds it absurd that as children we grow up with the false belief that Thanksgiving was a day when the Pilgrims & the Indians joined hands to enjoy a peaceful meal uniting them forever as friends? I mean i understand not wanting second graders to perform the Thanksgiving school play where they expose the plague and all the massacres that occurred, but it just seems wrong to mislead in such a way. When is it appropriate to actually educate the facts of American history? Those who are indigenous to this land we call “The United States of America” have been long misrepresented and pushed out of American history textbooks in favor of glorifying those who now rule this nation and represent the dominant culture. What kind of democracy are we when education institutions and teachers refuse to mention the fact that ten to thirty million Natives were killed at the hands of European invasion and colonialism?

Fact: Pilgrims were thankful that the Native American population was decreasing - dwindled by the plagues brought from Europe and of course by their own malicious hands... They were not loving creatures sharing their bread with the Natives. We tend to forget the genocide that occurred in our nation and how terribly we treated the true first settlers. Don't get me wrong, I still love the notion of gathering for a traditional feast with all your loved ones on the fourth Thursday of every November, I just also believe we should take time to reflect on our Natives, their history, and their culture. It's not just about being American, it's about being a part of the human race and caring and learning from their struggles to fight against racism, to prevent future genocide, and also to recognize our Nations history. However unglamorous it may be.

Just sayin. xoxo

Cleansing my mind

I'm someone who likes to maintain a clean and organized environment. Ideally, my habitat could always be described this way. Lately however my environment has been more like something one would describe as disastrously disorganized & disgusting. Well, at least by my standards. Yesterday I turned my music up loud & devoted some hours to cleaning, dusting, handling dishes & laundry, organizing mail & attempting to make my place look nice once more. What an intense high I got off it, was it the chemicals in Lysol & Pledge? Perhaps. To be completely honest, I had a legit meltdown earlier this week when I became overwhelmed by the clutter & abundance of laundry piles... My stress levels sky rocketed & when I realized I had not a single neat & tidy room to take deep breathes in... the tears began to flow as I collapsed to the ground.

I come from a long line of obsessively domesticated women, I fall somewhere in the middle. I also have a wandering mind & the ability to let the rest of the universe and the responsibilities that come with it disappear. Personal growth goal numero uno for me is finding a perfect, healthy balance of letting go, while keeping it together.

P.S. I totally had a green parakeet (like the above pictured) named Stroma. So cute!

punch buggy love

For as long as i can recall, i fondly remember playing the infamous punch buggy game. Primarily with my brother, Steven, throughout our childhood when we would slam our fists into each others arms as hard as we possibly could. I loved that game, but mostly i loved the look of all the colorful beetles. My parents had a powder blue one before i arrived on planet Earth, perhaps i was conceived in it, thus explaining my life long love for them...

fully had this matchbox car & it was my favorite to cruise with on the broski's plastic racetrack. i also remember my parents giving me a beetle shaped coin bank in elementary school, dubbed the bug bank, because clearly i would own a beetle if i saved enough pennies & dimes that didnt make it to the candy store. i suppose, if i was a child & ventured to the future & saw myself cruisin in my mellow yellow drop top bug she would presumably be extremely excited.... & bring back a killer windup fistful for Steven... "yellow punch buggy no punch backs! SUCKAAA!"

i giggled when coming across punchbuggy.org which contains a list of legitimate rules of play. this post is dedicated to the beauty of the beetle & all the punches they have brought & continue to bring every day ♥

♥ love bugs, bringing people together one punch & smile at a time. goodnight universe, i'm headed to dreamland...

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one of my favorite instruments is the harmonica. what a purely bold & soulful sound it produces. I'm a big fan of Black Rebel Motorcycle Club... their music is so unique & raw ---- five albums in & they are still making me tap my toes.

the track Complicated Situation off Howl (2005) is one of my all time favorites. Conscience Killer off their latest album is also super sick... do yourself a favor & check out 'Beat The Devil's Tattoo' they have a new ballzy female drummer now which gives them added cool points.

i'm so incredibly jealous of everyone in Europe that gets to see them live this winter!! happy monday universe, hope yours was as satisfying as mine.

random ramblings

i was up for ages last night unable to sleep. i suppose i was anxious for my first day at my new job.... some how i have absolutely zero complaints for my working Monday. high five!! & i must brag, I have a turquoise gem office with an eco friendly alternative to leather desk chair to sit my bum on. both of these novelties excite me... clearly, little things go very far with me.

i was elated that i was able to expose my shoulders today while working! baller.

jackass 3d had me laughing my ass off... it also had me gagging & shielding my eyes from heinous images forever burned into my brain. i even dreamt that jessica & i were participating in a sweat cocktail... terrifying to say the least but, i don't discourage viewers.

if the only objects that care about you in your life are your cats... then you probably should stop harassing your neighbors & spend more time with your feline friends. just sayin.

& lastly, if you find a KFC + Taco Bell joint location, do yourself a favor & order KFC potato wedges with TB nacho cheese... it equates to over indulgent bliss.


currently my house is a chilling fifty eight degrees... & i am tucked beneath my dandelion duvet hiding in my bed, patiently waiting for courage to come over me so i can get dressed & begin my football Sunday.

first there will be coffee. i have loved the smell of it for as long as i can remember. Naturally, having a Scottish mother who consistently brews coffee & tea numerous times a day... how could i not? i only began truly drinking coffee once i entered into the corporate America working world... i remember those early mornings when i would be pounding redbull & it just didnt seem quite right. Slowly i integrated warm rich bold Colombian beans into my morning & oh the happiness it has brought me.

fall has arrived & i have officially purchased my first boots of the season. now if only we could get a little leaf changing in Florida...

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Remember a [not so] little hardcore band known as Poison the Well? The guitarist Derek Miller is now part of a snazzy duo with the lovely Alexis Krauss. Electro indie funk guitar rips & smashing beats & synthesizers make you jiggle your head & dance like a hipster on intense amounts of cocaine & sparks. i'm currently obsessing over Sleigh Bells & it's easy to see why.