currently dreaming of

this absolutely beautiful rotary dial wall telephone. i am currently on the hunt for the perfect one for my kitchen. this one would look beyond perfect!

so stoked on seeing them when BG & I travel up to Chi-town in a few weeks!! still trying to decide if we should take the front row "poncho seats" or chill some rows back.... i dont know how i feel about staining my clothes, or watching it in a poncho. However, there is a part of me that wonders what if that is totally more awesome??

so need to pick up this album. the art work alone is so adorable. perfect tunes for spring! i love zooey deschanel. she is awesome, in imaginary land we are fully BFF's.

hello awesomeness

sundayyyyyy night & all i can think about it how excited i am for Tuesday night! My friends will be playing with the Ataris!

Which in my world is epic... for you see, ten years ago i went to my very first show (coincidentally with my friend who is the lead singer of the DGC) to see Inspection 12, the Vandals, & none other than the Ataris at club 218. i really didnt know what i was in for standing tall at the ripe age of fourteen & a half. I just knew i really wanted to hear "San Dimas High School Football Rules" & "Your Boyfriend Sucks" played live. before i knew it i was caught in the middle of a serious mosh pit when the Vandals took stage & my vans sneakers were flown off, much to my dismay. I remember rushing to the edges of the circle pit trying to squeeze my way out, completely abandoning said shoes, only to be slammed back into the sea of madness by huge ass dudes. it seemed impossible, i can recall it so vividly in slow motion, & just then in the distance i saw a familiar face, a tall, dark & handsome fella ninth grade Erin seriously sweated. His name, Drew Anderson... & he was just gorgeous. An older sophomore who was known on the streets to have a "thing" for redheads, though i was quite sure he didn't know i existed. Before i could wrap my head around the fact that he was witnessing me getting tossed like a ragdoll, there he was pulling me out of the pit, only to go back in to FIND & RETURN my shoes. I went with him up the stairs to watch the rest of the set, where i sat on railing danging my feet, already satisfied with my night. Next thing i knew he was talking to a guy in a volcom hat & then all of a sudden we were in front of a video camera announcing that we were live in Jacksonville for Volcom's something or another. This video, i never saw. The Ataris took stage & they were amazing. I was hooked, so much energy & excitement filled the club. This show sparked my love for punk rock shows. I can't believe its been ten years, & that i will be seeing them here in Jacksonville again, only this time sharing the stage with my friends. incredible!

you're gonna give me a what?

being the sweet girl that i am, i always take the time to talk with a customer who regularly comes into the bank, he is nineteen & comes in with his mother who is somewhat clueless. they are always there for what seems like an eternity & i believe that they both have Aspergers syndrome, but i don't really know for sure... however the signs all point to yes.

side note: Asperger syndrome is an autism spectrum disorder, and people with it therefore show significant difficulties in social interaction, along with restricted and repetitive patterns of behavior and interests. It differs from other autism spectrum disorders by its relative preservation of linguistic and cognitive development. Although not required for diagnosis, physical clumsiness and atypical use of language are frequently reported.[1][2]People with Asperger syndrome display behavior, interests, and activities that are restricted and repetitive and are sometimes abnormally intense or focused. Individuals with Aspergers syndrome may collect volumes of detailed information on a relatively narrow topic such as dinosaurs or deep fat fryers, without necessarily having genuine understanding of the broader topic. Unlike those with autism, people with Aspergers syndrome are not usually withdrawn around others; they approach others, even if awkwardly, for example by engaging in a one-sided, long-winded speech about an unusual topic while being oblivious to the listener's feelings or reactions, such as signs of boredom or wanting to leave.[3] This social awkwardness has been called "active, but odd".[1] This failure to react appropriately to social interaction may appear as disregard for other people's feelings, and may come across as insensitive.

The nineteen year old boy i'm nice to is named Eric. Eric's obsession: bands. i question whether or not he actually enjoys the rock music he incessantly talks to me about or if it just something for his mind to focus on. nonetheless, this is how a typical conversation with him goes... "Do you like Korn?" "Do you like Pantera?" "Do you like Dying Fetus?" regardless of my answer, his reply always includes a brief bio of the band (where they are from, full names, number of albums) & is followed by a slew of endless bands... rinse & repeat.

However, yesterday at closing time he came bouncing into the bank, rushed over to my window, scared the shit out of the customer i was in the middle of a transaction with & started making these crazy noises, something out of the ordinary, even for him. i could tell something wasnt right with him. his eyes wouldnt stop wandering and he was slurring and spitting while he was talking. basically i got a shower along with a lesson on bands from Norway i have never heard of. Then he proceeded to reach his arms over the glass and try to touch me. srsly, multiple times & when i told him to keep his hands to himself because I need personal space he burst out laughing & came at me with this...

"i am going to give you an orgasm!"

straight up. could not keep a straight face. hands down craziest thing a stranger has ever told me. needless to say, i wont be taking him up on that offer. & thankfully my coworker escorted him into a locked room. Although that did not deter him from trying to make a grab at me on my way out the door.

Officially ending this day with a little art project. i'm working on a new painting & hope it makes me smile as much as my hootie does. XOXO

happy friday :)

air pollution

Probably not what you imagine, but a crime just as fierce and deadly...
 ass breath.
 polluting the air around my face on a monday-friday basis. i'm serious, & it's honestly so brutal. It can often be spotted (ingested) at a Wachovia Bank near you. Imagine, a woman approaches your area, invades your personal space in a confined spot, traps you & boom the stench becomes overwhelming. it's simple to stop breathing momentarily and back away. but then it lingers, ass breath that almost knocks you over. You have to fake a smile over your cringe as to not come off like a total jerk, but in truth it's just one more reason to like my job a little less.

i wonder...

would a trail of starlight mints leading to a mountain of toothpaste & month rinse be a suddle enough hint?

& we'll all float on.

seriously how cute is this...

i have always wanted to go up in a hot air balloon, actually since i was about five years old. An owl balloon... ok, how insanely cute would this be to see floating up in the sky. One day i'll float a top the trees. I kind of can't wait for that day

she's got.... personality

soooo i just clicked away on sixty or so questions to generate what sort of personality i have. why spend my time doing such a thing??... ohhh sheer boredom & curiosity naturally. as for the results, not gonna lie- they were pretty dead on. basically im an ENFP (what! what!) making up a mere seven percent of the population.

"ENFPs are warm, enthusiastic people, typically very bright and full of potential. They live in the world of possibilities, and can become very passionate and excited about lots of things. Their enthusiasm lends them the ability to inspire and motivate others, more so than seen in other types. They can talk their way in or out of anything. They love life, seeing it as a special gift, and strive to make the most out of it. ENFPs have an unusually broad range of skills and talents. They are good at most things which interest them. Project-oriented, they may go through several different careers during their lifetime. To onlookers, the ENFP may seem directionless and without purpose, but ENFPs are actually quite consistent, in that they have a strong sense of values which they live with throughout their lives. Everything that they do must be in line with their values. ENFPs are charming, ingenuous, risk-taking, sensitive, people-oriented individuals with capabilities ranging across a broad spectrum. They have many gifts which they will use to fulfill themselves and those near them, if they are able to remain centered and master the ability of following through. Most ENFPs have great people skills. They are genuinely warm and interested in people, and place great importance on their inter-personal relationships."

thing that made me smile the most about this.... apparently Ariel from The Little Mermaid is an ENFP. :D i only watched that VHS everyday hoping i would one day be just like her & have my own Eric, talking fish & singing underwater friends.

weekend update

Saturday i went shopping with my fav Scottish lady aka my momma bear. I probably spent too much money, but could not resist. we had a delicious lunch at the new Panera on Fleming Island & i cruised her around with the top down in Daisy.


It was such a beautiful Saturday afternoon! I think all of my customers mentioned how amazing Saturday was this morning while i worked. Spring is here & i finally got to wear this perfect spring dress i picked up on clearance from Urban Outfitters months ago! I took pictures of the lovely blooms currently blossoming in my parents garden ~

oh how i wish for a growing colorful garden full of flowers & leafy greens! & a lemon tree,  i desperately desire my own citrus tree one day.

Saturday night i thought it would be a good idea to drink lots of alcohol with friends to celebrate the anniversary of one's birth, & the upcoming departure of another to wander to the west coast. Hello, shots.

Good times were had. crazy times as well. people getting so drunk & getting tattoos, passing out, random hookups, (none of which i was involved in) however, i was guilty of spending the night on a trampoline, due to my inability to drive home. i liked sleeping outside, & awoke to the rain sprinkling down on me in the wee morning hours. i thought it was pretty cute in a way. ♥

peacock love

eeep! i am so in love with the Liberty of London collection currently at Target. It is hands down without a doubt my favorite thus far... i picked up this gorgeous little gem....

OOOOh i so love the peacock feathers, & the bright ass pink shade. i've been looking to replace the previous table lamp for months & am SO happy with my purchase! i have literally been oogling over its beauty for days, as it sits in my living room, which is almost embarrassing to admit :D but really - so retro modern, love love love !!

just to the left of it i moved my painting:

It's a replica of BG's first guitar & i think it looks so much better on my "rolling hills" wall compared to on the "tropical waters" wall. yes, we painted our living room, both tropical waters & rolling hills.... best of both worlds? i think so. but i must say i do love its new location, props to my girl JT$ for suggesting the move.

& so, that's all for now~ time for bed! i am a tired girl & must be up by six-thirty for work! tomorrow is friday :) :) yay!


is it weird that i had a dream Michael Jackson & i were in love??
let me answer that for myself... um yes!! 
but, seriously, we were wild about each other... it was so realistic, & he was so gorgeous with long hair, darker skin, a nice toned bod & beautiful face... basically he didn't look or talk much like Michael.

He was in dreamland.... what made it stranger was that his brother, Jermaine, was deathly angry that we were having an interracial love affair. so we were on the run from him. Jermaine, what gives?? Get this, i woke up and went to work thinking about it only to find terrie, my coworker singing his songs.... hey, Michael, are you sending me a sign??

frames can't catch you when you're movin like that

Today i woke up at an ungodly hour for a Saturday morning ~ six am ! In case you didnt know, i'm an awesome girlfriend who wakes up at dawn to take BG & his friends downtown,  a midst a sea of twenty thousand others all eager to tackle the . gate river run. I have no personal ambitions of ever competing or completing a 15k, but will happily support others who love to push themselves to that level. instead of running, i navigated the closed streets downtown barely moving along in my little beatle. When i came home i snuggled with button & then began working on my newest painting & it then got the call that it was time to pick up the sweaty boys.

i put the top down, played some jack johnson & got ever so excited when i came up on the riverside arts market ! what a pleasant surprise ♥ SO after picking up the fellas we went for some tasty moon river pie ~~~ delish !! Then BG & i came home so he could shower & we all (button included) went to the market. she was so LOVED - everyone kept commenting on her & three different people asked if they could photograph her. too cute, & she was so well behaved, & made me so proud :]

i found these darlings & am excited to own them now ♥
sweet vintage telephone earrings, hand-beaded flower earrings, & a hand-beaded barrette. so adorable!
t'm off to work some more on my painting!

margarita mamas

hola internet world ♥ dinner with jt$ & Am was absolutely delish at la nop. i get the same thing every time i dine at there, chicken quesadilla, white cheese sauce (aka queso) for the yummy chips & nine times out of ten a margarita... or a pitcher :D

i'm quite sure i could easily live off their queso & chips alone. Actually, i am craving it now just thinking about those tasty tortillas covered in cheese. the only thing close to as yummy i have found in grocery store land is by a brand called Gordo's, & by saying close is pretty generous. i have failed at my own attempts of recreating it on the stove. i am a girl who LOVES cheese. anyway, enough about dairy products, and my desire for them.

i forced Am into taking a pic with us when she didn't want to. but i cant resist her adorable prego belly. why is it that most dudes fail so miserably in the photographic skills department?? ...seriously this image is one of four, & the best because of lack of centering skills, we're the focal point. Hi! Not exactly the ceiling. 

i ordered a pitcher of margs for jess & i & ended up drinking solo, pseudo drunkie?? Jess then drove us home & she cut my hairs in the back room. oh how wonderful it is to have a skilled girlfriend as a hairstylist. it came out shorter than i thought but it feels great & i got a lot of compliments on it today at work & i think she did awesome. i only wish she lived closer so we could feast on mexican food & laugh on a more regular basis.

hey lassie

flights booked! i'm going to Scotland for two weeks in May !!! & i'm SO excited! I can't wait to see my family & bonnie Scotland ♥ it has been entirely too long since i've been over there.  I'm already packing in my head.

work work workkkkkin sunday

what a productive day i have had!! i slept a glorious full eight hours, dreamt about things i remember & things i forget. i woke up determined to tackle some of the chores around the house that have been ignored on the weekdays after work & over the past few weekends.... like eight loads of laundry or so? seriously- it has been piling up in a room that i have so lovingly referred to as our "trash room". i tackled more than half of the dirty clothes - swept the floors, & began simultaneously organizing the two giant closets. I'm really impressed with how well its already coming along. I put together a shoe rack & my shoes look just darling on it. I intend on snagging some more at target tomorrow after work & some clothes hangers.

I even filled my beautiful ornate frame with an old Volcom poster & hung it.


i love it! i cant wait to have the rest of my wall art & the guitars up in the back room.i feel wonderful, & although i am so not looking forward to another daunting Monday at the bank I am looking forward to dinner with my parents Tuesday, & having Jess over Wednesday along with a lovely La Nop date with her.

a girl's best friend.


it's a beautiful thing the bond her & i have. i wonder sometimes what it would be like to know her in human form. is that crazy? i'm convinced she would be a little diva. her personality is hilarious- the way she perches up on the back of the couch & watches the neighborhood- growling softly as strangers pass along the street. Or demands with little cries that i pick her up so she can lay next to me, when she's too lazy to jump herself. She made me laugh again today the way she bolts out the back door & down the steps to hop along through the grass at full speed hoping to catch one of the many squirrels who live in our backyard, who are all slightly overweight from our walnut tree. She is beyond sweet, & brings so much love into my heart & there's really nothing as special as having a little creature waiting joyfully for you to come home.

makin a mixtape

mixtapes are so much fun !! I am a huge music fan ~ I remember making mixtapes & how much more time consuming & extra special they were pre iTunes & cd burning... hardwork & love went into the,. Not to say that they are any less special now that technology has advanced...  but, I think a mixtape (or cd) is one of the best ways to spread love. So, here's some love ~ from me to you!

[track one] color bars ~ elliot smith
[track two] flat head~ the fratellis
[track three] magic winds ~ black magic
[track four] black rebel motorcycle club ~ ain't no easy way
[track five] fruit bats ~ slipping through the sensors
[track six] modest mouse ~ missed the boat
[track seven] the velvet underground ~ heroin

[track one] bob dylan ~ all along the watch tower
[track two] she & him ~ in the sun
[track three] frightened rabbit ~ swim until you can't see land
[track four] counting crows ~ raining in baltimore
[track five] 1990's ~ arcade precinct
[track six] the white stripes ~ icky thump
[track seven] miike snow ~ animal

pondering through the looking glass

Sometimes i dress up as Alice. Dreaming of giant toad stools, mad hatters, cheshire cats & magical tea parties. & sometimes i venture off to see Alice in Wonderland in IMAX 3D & although it was tempting to hilariously wear last Halloween's costume to the theater,,. i held back.

I could feel my heartbeat taking me down

I could feel my heartbeat taking me down
& for the moment, I would sleep alright
I'm dealing with a selfish fear
To keep me up another restless night
Another restless night

....Manchester Orchestra was absolutely amazing live!! I've been wanting to see them so badly - even more after i learned that when i attend Brand New in Orlando M.O. will longer be on the tour. bum city.

SO when i discovered they were coming to town i was stoked- even wrote it on the calender over a month in advance. I like my reminders :] but, instead of purchasing tickets in advance we strolled up to the door right at opening to get in only to learn the show was sold out. Sold out!?! devastating, sure. BG & i smoked cigarettes as we wallowed in our ignorance, pouted & he tried everything he could think of to get us tickets, including talking to the keyboardist/backup-vocalist for Manchester. no luck.

We decided to wander along & go to a bar for a couple hours & then try again later. We walked into a nearby pub at Jax Beach when i noticed a table full of smiling men staring at us & waving us over. Ohhhh Navy comradeory, but of course. casual drinks & foosball turned into Dick (seriously) ordering two rounds of jager bombs & before i knew it we were skipping down the pavement back to Freebird. i nearly kissed the gnarly bearded man when he said we could get in. Seriously, we were let in. YAY!!

With us both feeling tipsy & intoxicated with the sheer thrill that we would soon be seeing Manchester we wandered in. Something about not getting something as easily as you thought you would makes you appreciate it even more. sure we paid a little more, & we missed the opening bands but we were so stoked. SO stoked. i was blown away by their set. i mean can i just say, again, they put on an incredible set! Tons of energy & songs from both albums & a couple new ones. BG & i kept yelling out "I COULD FEEL A HOT ONE!" at the end of every song. the pack of people around us eventually started to laugh at us & after about six songs, of us desperately pleading for it... they joined in. i love that song, so much passion. but, when they left the stage i was disappointed because i didn't hear it. & then of course, they came back out & played it. seriously, i don't care what anyone says, that played that song for me. & it was so beautiful. BG recorded it. it has so many drunken woo's its ridiculous. but beautiful nonetheless.

saying goodbye ♥

Last night i had to say goodbye to my sweet Opie ♥ who was taken too soon from us. I find comfort in knowing that although he had it horribly rough the first three years of his life (he was abused prior to my family rescuing him) he was so happy & sweet for his final three on the earth. He loved me, oh he would just go nuts with the excitement when i would pull into the driveway. I'll never forget when i came home after leaving BG for his seven month deployment he just came to me & snuggled me for hours til i cried myself to sleep on the couch. He was such a loving sweet little guy. & he made me laugh constantly. There's a sacred bond between human & animal & I'm heartbroken for him. I will always love you lil dopey Opie, & I will always miss you ♥

forever blonde ~ a night with marilyn

Friday night BG surprised me by taking me to see Marilyn Forever Blonde at MOCA which was really thoughtful & exciting since he knows how much i love her!! It's a one-woman play that pulls you into an intimate 1962 shoot with Marilyn as she opens up about her life. She poses, sings, flirts, devours champagne & goes through numerous costume changes. It was crazy how real it felt, she really embodied Marilyn - making me wonder what it would be like to see her in the true swinging sixties. The whole play is all supposed to be "her own words" & even included sound clips where we hear brutally cruel statements about her by her ex husbands. It opened & closed the same way - with her naked & laying between satin ivory sheets.

It was heartbreaking at the end, I felt her loneliness while sitting there in my chair. I really enjoyed it, my only complaint was that I didn't feel her style was reflected well in the play at all--- I was so disappointed in the outfits she wore, it almost cheapened it for me. Oh & no singing Happy Birthday Mr. President- though she did do a great job with the other thirteen (according to my playbill) songs. Below is an interview with the actress & star Sunny Thompson~

she even goes in & out of character in the clip.